What I feel tis recently...

I dono wat makes me feel tis way recently...
The feelings just came suddenly...Its like so touch that my tears came falling down..I have no reason to tell why...Memories of You and me suddenly came CRUSHING on my mind...
I still remember the days we been through...When I am dumb...I dono how to dance shuffle.You teach and lead me...When I sick..You came to me...and hope my sickness will 'jangkit' to you...so I won't be so san fu[susah]...I noe tat time..You were oso sick..You cough and cough non-stop...I still remember the time..we walk around the church...taking the most precious, one and only picture with you...there was NO chance for now..I know...I still remember the days we been on sms...calling each other with nicknames[mickey/minnie] and [tomato/potato]...I've once delete all those messages ...so now..I don have any things to refer and remind of the days we been through...I still remember ur face when I lost my handphone..You are the one who give me 5 miscalls...I really thank u so much..I dono wat can I do...but I still saved some messages which was nt much on my SAVED MESSAGES there...I once remember the time you came to church for nothing in the afternoon..just to see me one time...where I didnt saw u...I feel sorry..I still remember the days and times we went through Christmas in MPS..which u were far from me...I still remember the joy and happiness we share during the countdown of the year 2010 in KFC...The way u treat me..will always on my mind..I know I have hurted u..everyone in this world might think I am selfish...No one will understands wat the ways I feel in you..the reason I don wan you to wait for me til finish SPM...I know u don noe why too...
This recently..When I saw u sad...N not even wan to talk to me..though feeling sad and dissapointed...I always think...did i make the wrong decision..Izit too unfair to you?? I really wan sms you to give back u the chance...but i noe...I cant do..
Until today...my mom ask me bout u and me..she say why recently..i didnt talk bout u jor...I dono wt to say...my heart feels the uneasiness...At last...honestly..I tell my mom bout everything..I cried...my mom say she understands...she don think it is tat selfish..she convince me..tat we are still young...Its better not to give too much hope for you..to wait for me two more years...coz it may hurts more next time...coz now..I know u have been hurted liao...that time i sms u...I really cried..coz I LOVE YOU so much...but I pray to God..and ask Him to let me to forget You....only God understands me...really de..everyone don understands well including me...
From tat day I hurt you...I feel tat I have no longer to receive love from others again...I cant accept anyone...I will just let it be...I miss those days with you..but I cant do anything..It is over..
I just hope u happy..Today saw u...wif a girl..seems so obviously happy...I feel no regret..coz tats wat I ask God for..To bless u wif a happy life...everyday happy and healthy..God bless
memorables dates= 20Dec2009-05Feb2010